Wednesday, November 25, 2009

I was tagged on FaceBook

What are your middle names?

Cameron and Leigh

How long have you been together?
five and half years

How long did you know each other before you started dating?
three months

Who asked who out?
It was all Reid... I wasn't about to chase him around

Whose siblings do you see the most?
Reid's definitly.

Do you have any children together?
yup the cutest baby named Sadie.

What about pets?
No, if it were up to me I would but Reid hates animals.

Did you go to the same school?
Yes we went to the same college that is how we met.

Who is the most sensitive?
I'm definitly the most sensitive in this family.

Where do you eat out most as a couple?
We don't really eat out. Unless we are on vacation.

Where is the furthest you have ever traveled as a couple?
the Bahamas and Alaska

Who has the worst temper?
I wouldn't say neither of us have a temper we just definitly lose patience with one another.

Who does the cooking?
Me. But since the baby was born Reid has taken up two nights a week "cooking".

Who is more social?
Neither of us. With work, our businesses, baby, church and traveling we don't have that much time but it's totally a cop out.

Who is the neat freaks?
Reid more so than me but we both like a clean house.

Who is the most stubborn?
We both are and about different things.

Who hogs the bed?
Depends, ususally Reid but when I was preggo the bed was mine.

Who wakes up earlier?
Well.... do you mean for the day? If so Reid but I wake up at 5 am for Sadie to feed so...

Where was your first date?
Spiderman 2 the movie.

Who has the bigger family?
Reid- he has four sisters. I have one brother and one sister.

Do you get flowers often?
Never. Reid knows I would rather have sweets.

Who eats more?
Reid although I rivaled him while pregnant.

Who sings better?

Who does the laundry?
We both do

Who's is better with the computer?
Reid is a computer genius although I'm not too bad myself.

Who drives when you are together?
Always Reid- he can't stand my driving.

Who picks where you go to dinner?
We share that task.

Who is the first one to admit when they are wrong?
Whoever is wrong at that particular moment, and we share that pretty equally.

Who wears the pants in the relationship?
I'd say we both have one leg in the pants.

Who eats more sweets?
We are both guilty of that, but I buy more and bake more sweets.

Who cries more?
I've seen Reid cry like four times total. I cry everyday.

What's your best day together?
Our wedding day used to be our best day but now it would be Sadie's birthday.

Where did you honeymoon?
Cabo San Lucas

Favorite date night?
what's that? haha I wish we had more time for such things... but probably temple night.

Favorite TV show to watch together?
The Office and 30 Rock

Couple I imagine us growing old like?

I tag everyone! Your turn!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Reflections on motherhood...

Leaving the hospital after Sadie was born was hard…really hard. More than that it was surreal. It had all happened so fast and I couldn’t really get a grip that she was here and I was a new mother. I was expecting Sadie to come late. Her original due date was October 10 and I expected her to come on October 18. She was born two days early. So my nesting wasn’t quite complete and I wasn’t all that ready to not be pregnant anymore. I loved being pregnant. I wasn’t one of those woman that complained of the pains and not being able to sleep. I loved feeling all of her movements and I felt secure knowing she was safe in there.

But all of a sudden, it was time to leave the safety of the hospital and become a real mom. It was too much. So I cried. I cried a lot. I cried as I packed up my belongings, I cried as we changed her out of the hospital clothes into her going home clothes, and I cried as Reid carried her in her car seat out to the car. I was a mess.

The real problem was that to me leaving the hospital was synonymous with her turning eighteen, going to college and getting married. I figured if this all happened so fast then her growing up was going to happen so fast. And I loved my little baby. I had never felt anything so powerful before and it really frightened me. To look at something so pure and innocent and know I was responsible for teaching and guiding her? Yikes. She had just come from being with her Heavenly Father and I brought her into this scary world, how could I protect her? How could I make sure she would be able to get back there? It was all too much.

It doesn’t help that everyone tells me to enjoy the newborn phase because it goes by so fast. I don’t want it to go by so fast. She is beautiful and I love her being so little. So I have made sure to enjoy every little newborn moment with Sadie. When I change her diaper I kiss every one of her newborn toes. During our night feedings after I have nursed her and she has fallen back to sleep in my arms I take that extra time to stare at her, kiss her and cuddle her. Because someday when she does turn eighteen and I’m dropping her off at college, I want to remember that I took the time to admire and adore her as my little baby. I have the rest of my life to sleep. For now all I want is my newborn cuddles.